HEY

So... I opened this blogspot again. My old blogspot. Uh, I don't know if I'll be posting here again because i'm having fun on my new one. Haha. That's just stupid. So yes. Anyway. My neck hurts(who cares). Take care
and good day to ya :)

sorry huh

oh yeah, he keeps on saying sorry. i don't like it. no that doesn't mean i'm starting to hate him. but, it makes me feel like, i don't want to see his FS acct anymore 'cause it screams out sorry, all that's left is for it to literally scream SORRYYYYYY!! at me.. and i don't want to open my friendster account because i want to avoid people, but i don't want to do that because that would be so stupid. no offense to people who do that. i know i wouldn't like what i would see. but i didn't expect it to be like that! i never thought he would apologize for things. as i have told you, uhm, whoever has read my past posts, i don't need SORRY. *sigh*
i want to get away , go to another country, another planet, or even another galaxy. i just want to escape from what i'm feeling right now...
i HATE THIS!
what have i done to deserve this??? i didn't really kill anyone!
*sigh*
it's driving me freakin' bananas!
i don't want to explain to people what's up with us...
that's one of the reasons why i want to avoid people who know its us..
*sigh*
alright, i know all i do is sigh, but i don't know what to do!
i don't want to hurt him, but i don't want to lie. i just want to disappear or one day to just wake up and be someone else... i don't like this!
i can't explain how much i hate it...
and i'm starting to despise love songs... *sigh*
he doesn't realize how hard it is for me as well, he thinks that just because i am the one who wants to break up it's EASY!
or another escape tactic is to hide at home and NEVER and do i mean NEVER go out!
*sigh sigh sigh*

how could i ever live with this?

fu(k

geeeeeeeeez men! im going to explode!
i hate the question WHY!!!
WHYYYYYY!!!! WHY???
I'LL EFFIN TELL YOU WHY!!

BULL$#!T!

anywayssss, change of scenery...

REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:

NOW

Is your hair up?

: yes, i was struck by an effin lighting

Is your phone right beside you?

: no, it's in front of me

Do you have a bf/ gf?
: why'd you have to ask that?!

Do you wish you were somewhere else?
: oh hellllll yes

Do you have plans for tonight?
: what. i'll just stay up late, again, just like last night

Are you wearing makeup?
:yes, sometimes
Are you wearing chapstick?
: no, it darkens my lips you know
Are you cold?
: no, i'm bitter!
Are you tired?
: emotionally? yeah T.T
Are you excited?
: for what?
Are you watching t.v.?
: uh, no
Are you wearing pajamas?
: no
Who's the last person you IMed?
: who? my highschool batchmate
Who's the last person that called you?
: hm.. my sister..

PAST
Anything you regret?
: yupsidoodles
Ever lied?
: no! well, do you believe me?
Ever stuck gum under a desk?
: no, ew
Ever spit at someone?
: i'm NOT that mean!
Ever kick something living?
: oh yes, sorry 'bout that
Ever had your nails done?
: by me? yes
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?
: no, that's weird though if that happened

LAST WEEK
Had any plans last week?
: oh yeah
Who did you see most last week?
: oh lots, that WAS a fun week :) .. who though? lets see, my friends, my friends, my friends :)
Was last week interesting?
: hell yeah :)

TODAY
Have you cussed?
: yesss
Have you yelled at someone?
: i just raised my voice, does that count?
Have you gotten mad at someone?
: of course, im ill tempered!
Have you cried?
: nearly
Have you called more than 3 people?
: nope
Have you IMed more than 3 people?
: yes
Have you eaten anything gross?
: your booger! -.-

SPILL YOUR GUTS
Q. First thing you did this morning?
: check my fone
Q. Last thing you ate?:
: cassava cake. yummy!
Q. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?

: classes! weee! college life, welcome me!
Q. What's annoying you right now?
: can't say. mentally incapacitated people?
Q. What's the last movie you saw?
: any given sunday
Q. Do you believe in long distance relationships?
: i guess..
Q Where is the last place you went?
: hm, where? citta italia, in ces' place :)
Q: Who is the last person you called?
: my subconscious
Q: Been cheated on?
: not that i know of
Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
: i have no idea
Q: Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity)
: creativity..
Q: Do you wish on stars?
: no, i just stare at them
Q: Does it work?
: what, i said i didn't! were you expecting that I say YES??
Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them of?
: what shoes? i have diffrent kinds of shoes! are you irritating me??
Q: When did you last cry?
: nah. shut up
Q: Do you like your handwriting?
: yes, it's cool
Q: Are you a friendly person?
: i'm trying to be
Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
: yess
Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
: mine
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
: bleuuuu
Q: Do you have any pets?
: yep
Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
: now? blue
Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
: oh. i don't remember
Q: last person you talked to?
: my sis
Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?
: last week
Q: Look to your left?
: huh?
Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
: i think
Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder?
: no, i have always wanted to
Q: Song that makes you cry?
: depends on my situation
Q: Are you a normally happy person?
: oh... suuuuuuure
Q: Is your self-esteem low?
: yes baby
Q: What color are your eyes?
: brown, but i color it with color pens sometimes,pfffft
Q: Long or Short Hair?
: short
Q: Current Music?
: BOOTY MUSIC!! :)





`well i liked the last question
haha..
that made me feel happy a bit.
tc all!
til my next post!

* tanitan *

lets procrastinate

my life has had a sudden change in events... for one thing, two days ago, we had broken up
then the day after that, i took it back...
i don't know if that was a wrong move or what, but i know there's one of those two things i would definitely regret..
i don't believe that no one had no regrets, i used to believe that but i know there's one point in your life that you will regret something...

anyway...
change of scenery... i'll share with you a survey i did again today because i'm just so f*ckin' bored
HAHA

1.Honestly, what color is your shirt?

`white and fink

2.Honestly, what`s on your mind?

` i don't know, there's too much on my mind right now, including this "honest" survey

3.Honestly, what have you done yesterday?

` shopping, work, text...

4.Honestly, have you ever been in love?

` yup

5.Honestly, feeling anything usual?

` yes? wanna know what?

6. Honestly, is your heart still occupied?

` guess so

7.Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?

` ronan, last night. oh, i mean morning...

8. Honestly, are you jealous of somebody right now?

` nope,but i think someone else is jealous after reading my answer to question #7 ;)

9.Honestly, what makes you sad most of the time?

` when i do a survey in an empty stomach, which is what i'm effin' doing right now

10.Honestly, are you LOVING someone right now?

` i always am

11.Honestly, what are the things you don't want in life?

` everything about it, no i'm just kidding... there's a hell lot of things i don't want in life, but i later realize that some of them are important

12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?

` yes, i wanna see GOD :)

13.Honestly, any plannings in near future?

` yes! don't YOU? gosh!

14. Honestly, do you love someone very much?

` i always do, you freak

15. Honestly, does anyone LIKE you?

` maybe... just... maybe

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

1.What do you do when you're mad?

` cry... and cut my wrist... hahaha

2.What's the worst things you've done when you were very mad?

` when i blame other people.. that's the worst thing i have done so far... i often thought of a killing spree though ;D

3.Ever made anyone cry?

` i think... well yeah, i did

4. Do you curse when you're mad?

` hell, even when i'm not mad i curse.. f*(k this survey! LOL

5. When was the last time you really cried?

` that's a secret, 'cause i'm crying most of the time

6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?

` hmmmmm... have i.... guess i did, i just forgot when.. oh yeah! i remember now.

7. What usually makes you cry?

` other people

8. Are you normally a happy person?

` hmm... am i... yes... i think :)

9. Does being with your friends make you happy?

` OF COURSE! i'm so happy i could die with them.. haha

10. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy?

` depends on how they say it :)




are you happy now? ;)
till my next post kids!

* tanitan *