sorry huh

oh yeah, he keeps on saying sorry. i don't like it. no that doesn't mean i'm starting to hate him. but, it makes me feel like, i don't want to see his FS acct anymore 'cause it screams out sorry, all that's left is for it to literally scream SORRYYYYYY!! at me.. and i don't want to open my friendster account because i want to avoid people, but i don't want to do that because that would be so stupid. no offense to people who do that. i know i wouldn't like what i would see. but i didn't expect it to be like that! i never thought he would apologize for things. as i have told you, uhm, whoever has read my past posts, i don't need SORRY. *sigh*
i want to get away , go to another country, another planet, or even another galaxy. i just want to escape from what i'm feeling right now...
i HATE THIS!
what have i done to deserve this??? i didn't really kill anyone!
*sigh*
it's driving me freakin' bananas!
i don't want to explain to people what's up with us...
that's one of the reasons why i want to avoid people who know its us..
*sigh*
alright, i know all i do is sigh, but i don't know what to do!
i don't want to hurt him, but i don't want to lie. i just want to disappear or one day to just wake up and be someone else... i don't like this!
i can't explain how much i hate it...
and i'm starting to despise love songs... *sigh*
he doesn't realize how hard it is for me as well, he thinks that just because i am the one who wants to break up it's EASY!
or another escape tactic is to hide at home and NEVER and do i mean NEVER go out!
*sigh sigh sigh*

how could i ever live with this?

fu(k

geeeeeeeeez men! im going to explode!
i hate the question WHY!!!
WHYYYYYY!!!! WHY???
I'LL EFFIN TELL YOU WHY!!

BULL$#!T!

anywayssss, change of scenery...

REVEAL A LITTLE ABOUT YOURSELF:

NOW

Is your hair up?

: yes, i was struck by an effin lighting

Is your phone right beside you?

: no, it's in front of me

Do you have a bf/ gf?
: why'd you have to ask that?!

Do you wish you were somewhere else?
: oh hellllll yes

Do you have plans for tonight?
: what. i'll just stay up late, again, just like last night

Are you wearing makeup?
:yes, sometimes
Are you wearing chapstick?
: no, it darkens my lips you know
Are you cold?
: no, i'm bitter!
Are you tired?
: emotionally? yeah T.T
Are you excited?
: for what?
Are you watching t.v.?
: uh, no
Are you wearing pajamas?
: no
Who's the last person you IMed?
: who? my highschool batchmate
Who's the last person that called you?
: hm.. my sister..

PAST
Anything you regret?
: yupsidoodles
Ever lied?
: no! well, do you believe me?
Ever stuck gum under a desk?
: no, ew
Ever spit at someone?
: i'm NOT that mean!
Ever kick something living?
: oh yes, sorry 'bout that
Ever had your nails done?
: by me? yes
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?
: no, that's weird though if that happened

LAST WEEK
Had any plans last week?
: oh yeah
Who did you see most last week?
: oh lots, that WAS a fun week :) .. who though? lets see, my friends, my friends, my friends :)
Was last week interesting?
: hell yeah :)

TODAY
Have you cussed?
: yesss
Have you yelled at someone?
: i just raised my voice, does that count?
Have you gotten mad at someone?
: of course, im ill tempered!
Have you cried?
: nearly
Have you called more than 3 people?
: nope
Have you IMed more than 3 people?
: yes
Have you eaten anything gross?
: your booger! -.-

SPILL YOUR GUTS
Q. First thing you did this morning?
: check my fone
Q. Last thing you ate?:
: cassava cake. yummy!
Q. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?

: classes! weee! college life, welcome me!
Q. What's annoying you right now?
: can't say. mentally incapacitated people?
Q. What's the last movie you saw?
: any given sunday
Q. Do you believe in long distance relationships?
: i guess..
Q Where is the last place you went?
: hm, where? citta italia, in ces' place :)
Q: Who is the last person you called?
: my subconscious
Q: Been cheated on?
: not that i know of
Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
: i have no idea
Q: Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity)
: creativity..
Q: Do you wish on stars?
: no, i just stare at them
Q: Does it work?
: what, i said i didn't! were you expecting that I say YES??
Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them of?
: what shoes? i have diffrent kinds of shoes! are you irritating me??
Q: When did you last cry?
: nah. shut up
Q: Do you like your handwriting?
: yes, it's cool
Q: Are you a friendly person?
: i'm trying to be
Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
: yess
Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
: mine
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
: bleuuuu
Q: Do you have any pets?
: yep
Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
: now? blue
Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
: oh. i don't remember
Q: last person you talked to?
: my sis
Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?
: last week
Q: Look to your left?
: huh?
Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?
: i think
Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder?
: no, i have always wanted to
Q: Song that makes you cry?
: depends on my situation
Q: Are you a normally happy person?
: oh... suuuuuuure
Q: Is your self-esteem low?
: yes baby
Q: What color are your eyes?
: brown, but i color it with color pens sometimes,pfffft
Q: Long or Short Hair?
: short
Q: Current Music?
: BOOTY MUSIC!! :)





`well i liked the last question
haha..
that made me feel happy a bit.
tc all!
til my next post!

* tanitan *