eeeenduuuuung :)

so i was in indang yesterday because i tagged along with mom on her outing for her highschool batchmates. some of her batchmates' offsprings (haha, offsprings) tagged along too. but there wasn't anyone who became my friend then. yes there were some who were as old as me but we didn't even know each others name. so anyway, i got over the fact that no one will step up to me and introduce himself or herself and just listened to the old people. i don't mean calling the OLD people an insult, okay? they know more about life than i do, or more than my friends do. so i listened to them and knew some stuff i didn't know before. things that i thought i was the only one who was like that..

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we were in a resort by the way, and you can imagine my being a loner in the pool. which i didn't enjoy as much as i enjoy being with my friends. right, i didn't last 30mins in the pool. i didn't feel like i belong and stuff. besides, the water was COLD! i didn't mind the fact that there are many people 'cause i'd look more stupid if i was swimming alone. NOT really my most pleasant experience. But at least my mothers friends made me feel at home.

after that we went to my mothers batchmate's house and we "harvested" some of the fruits. which was really fun. they looked like kids catching and chasing mangoes from the tree. haha

tiring as it was, i never forgotten that it was also our monthsary. it was like sooooo sick 'cause the phone signal was on-off. that's why i didn't get to text him the whole day. or the whole time we were in indang at least. it was a shame. i'm not glad about it. i was trying my best to have a great time, but really, those were just hmm, it lasts for about a second or so, then i'm back to my gloomy self. :)
i told him to call me using theunlimited calls at night. but he said he was sleepy and it won't be worth it for him. it made me sad, so needless to say, i cried my eyes out...
i told him i understand and i let him sleep. but NOOO, he asked questions that made it more complicated. YES, i didn't want him to sleep. but what else can i effin do? so i just told him to sleep it off. it was okay until he asked questions. GAH. he should've let me cry my eyes out. good thing my sister gave me those hopia that were square shaped. it helped me stop crying for a while.

now that i think about it, i'm not sad anymore. i'm just realllllllllly pissed off. hell, i was ALSO tired you know? didn't he think of that? that even though i'm tired and all, i still want to hear his voice instead of giving in and dozing off in my bed. i find it unfair. so anyway, he gave me these [lousy] reasons why he can't call me.
1. he's tired
2. his parents will wake up
3. he's got much to say that he can't say when he calls me [he calls in a hush, mind you,that's why i can't hear him] that he wants to call me the next day because he wants to say those things now and can't tell them the next day (anyway,did you get that?)

i really have gone from sad to angry. it was so f*cking unfair. i hate it.
but i just said that we drop the case and sleep. we need that both. were tired.

oh yeah, edwin called that time. i told my bf that "buti pa si king tumawag NGAUN"
and that's the time he gave me lousy reason number three.

well i think were good now, but i'm not so sure...


till my next post!
i'm outta heeerre

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